La Dispute - a Broken Jar Lyrics


So here goes, 
One last letter now. One last attempt toMake sense. Who have I been writing to? I'm not sure anymore. What have IBeen trying to accomplish? It's a mystery, I guess. Self-made secrecy.Things get cloudy and now all these stories and
The struggle as anUndercurrent, both get blurry by the minute both get blurrier. 
So, Which voice is this then that I've been writing in? Is it my own or his?
Has there ever been a difference between them at all?

I don't know I don't know. 

One last desperatePlea. One last verse to sing. One last laugh track to accompany the comedy.
Have I been losing it completely? Losing sanity? Or has it beenFabricated, fashioned by the worst of me? 
I know I knocked the tableOver because I watched the jar break and I've been trying to repair itEvery single stupid day But won't the cracks still show no matter how wellIt's assembled can I ever just decide to let it die and let you go?

All my motives and every single narrative below reflects thatMoment when it broke and will I never let it go
No matter what? Now I am throwing all the shards away, discarding every fragment, and fumblingUncertain towards a Curtain call that no one wants to happen, that no onesGoing to clap for at all, but that still has to be.
