La Dispute - A Letter Lyrics
Everybody wants a reason for everything.
It's so much easier withSomeone or something to blame.
I've always struggled at theRoot of the problem.
Has it been absence or my constant lack ofDefense?
I've never spent a lot on finding a remedy. I guessI figured that it hurt for a reason. I guess
That's why I've alwaysTurned to writing it down. Not just in stories, but the letters in between.
And I guess that's why it haunts the pages of everything—toSelf-examine.
I think the thing is that I shut off fromEverything. From friends and family and my own ambitions. From having fun.I just shut off from everything. Self-defeating? Yeah, probably. But IDon't know that I had total control over it. And I'm not sure it evenMatters why. Sometimes things Happen and you can't do anything. Plus, I'mThe only one who deals with it anyway. So if everyone could do me a favorAnd just put their fingers down I'd—and keep yourMouths—
Sorry. I know I seem angry. I'm not, I... I promise. IJust know I did this to me. And I will deal with it accordingly. And IDon't need opinions from those never a part of it. Don't need them pointingOut my problems, they're mine. Don't need reminders I know better thanAnyone.
And yeah, I know, I should be finding another way. IKnow that I should be out seeking a Substitute. But just forgetting neverReally made sense to me.
So I haven't been.
DoI feel embarrassed about it? I think you know the answer to that. I thinkYou'd probably feel a Little bit embarrassed for me, wouldn't you?
I know I should've moved on ages ago, been happy already, butIt's never been that easy for me. Or maybe it was me that made it so hard.
I know I've only ever tried a handful of times to sever thisThing torturing me. It never got me anywhere, with anyone. No friendship orHobby, no lover's bed worked. But looking back I Maybe never tried hardEnough, and it is my fault.
Maybe I never tried at all.
