KJ-52 - #1 Fan (feat. Jubilee) Lyrics
Yo this is what happened:Yo I woke up late it was like 10 in the mornin'I was still half asleep and sleepy eyed, still yawnin'I checked my voice mail to see who'd been callin'I turned on my computercheck my email logged on itJunk mail, junk mail dog-gone-itEverybody they just tryin to sell me they productBut there was one email that just caught my opticIt said sucidal, took the mouse I clicked on itShe said " Dear KJ you don't know who I am,You probably don't even care cause im just another fan.I doubt you ever read this, now but if ya canSometimes I slash my wrists and even cut my handsAnd I feel all alone like nobody understandsAnd I'm gonna end it tonight I got the whole thing plannedPop pills, leave a note on my night standSigned sincerely, Your Number 1 fanChorus:Can someone now please help meWill someone now just please help meCan someone now please help meWill someone now just please help meVerse 2:My heart is poundin as I start to type backWhy do you feel this way do you mind if I ask?Whats the source and the cause of the pain that you haveHow did you get this way, is it something from the pastGod cares about you, I hope you understand thatPlease don't end your life, I beg ya please write backI finished typin', I sent the email quite fastI bowed my head and prayed with the strength that I hadShe said "Man KJ I didn't even know you would write me.Let me explain why no one could ever like meIt all started when my father used to strike meRaped and abused since 1990He's gone now but I can't put it all behind meI tried to run away but my troubles always find meIs God really just the one that can help me (yes He is)Signed tonight your Number 1 FanChorusVerse 3:Dear number one fan I gotta lot to tell youBut with the email there is only so much I can help youSee I know a Father who could never ever fail youHe'll give you a love when nobody ever cared toI know you might feel like everybody hates youAnd you feel like you got no one you can relate toAnd death feels just like the best place to escape toBut thats a lie that Satan, he just wants to tell youI'm sorry that you were abused, your father raped youBut you gotta get some help cause nobody can make youI know its hard to face but God will give you the strength toI know you gots a lot of things you gots to work throughBut with this help see I know that you can break throughI seen it myself all the times that He came throughHit me backTell me what you think of what I sent youI'll be prayin', Sincerely KJ-52ChorusVerse 4:Yo, I'd be pretending if I said this story had a happy endinBut after that night yo I never heard from her againThat night I tossed and turned lyin on my bed enCryin and prayin with these thoughts runnin through my head enDid she do it, take her life, or wind up dead enOr did she not choose it, just listened to what I said enMaybe she never got the last one I was sendinIs it my fault was it something I shoulda mentionedEvery mornin I would just check my emailCheckin for any detail, hopin an prayin that shes wellMy emails came back sayin that they'd failedNo such address for Number1Fan@hotmailDays turned to weeks and weeks turned to months enTime would pass and I still just heard nuthinNo letter no email just not even somethinWhat happened to my Number 1 fan I'm still wonderinChorus"Hey yall, KJ will be signing, uh, over here at table 2 in just a minute, all right""Wus up man""Wus up man, I liked your show""Aa, you enjoyed the show, huh""Yea it was hot""A thanks man, whats ya name?""Mike""Ok, here ya go bro""Thanks alot man peace""How's it goin'?""It's adeal""What's ya name?""George""Ok""I like ya stuff, man""Aa thanks man""It's real hot""Here ya go bro""Aight man, peace""How you doin'?""I'm alright""Could you make that out to your #1 fan?""I'm sorry, I didn't, I didn't catch that, whats ya...""To ya #""You said #1, #1 fan, what?""Nah what what's ya actual name?""I'm your #1 fan""Wait a minute""That's me""Your that person?""Yea, I-I wrote you that e-mail""Your that-""Dang what... what's happened since I last talked to you?""A whole lots happened, but i'm better now""Thank you KJ"
