Benefit - Fairwell Lyrics
I'm gonna leave the past aloneI used to have a blast at homeAnd a cellular phone, now I'm a walking skeletal boneMy stomach's eating itself because I'm so damn hungryI'm homeless, just about worthless and stumblyCuz I just finished that last bit of Guinness??? food *****, mind your own businessNow tend to mine, sometimes I tend to findA little piece of sandwich somebody left behindAnd I'll eat that the whole day, I beg thee alwaysSay will work for food, have no place to stayStarvation has me living on my last chanceI make a fast dash and hit up all the trashcansIf I'm lucky I'll find a piece of bread, often insteadI like to slash my neck leaving my shirt awfully redBut I can't put the knife to my neck, my life is a wreckAnd I'd shoot myself if I had a rifle or tekProlonged death through malnutrition is unbearableI try to find a job, I'm filthy plus I smell terribleSo nobody wants to pay me, no hottie wants to lay meI tell the prostitutes to give me head, they disobey meMaybe, I'll join the military, join the NavyBut I have no identification and no braverySo ***** it, I'm just gonna be alcohol's puppetGet really drunk, find a tall building and climb up itAnd then I'll jump off, but wait, I'm afraid of heightsI have to turn off my lights some way with no frightsWhat's the difference if I go out quietly or with a bang?There's a ledge, there's a rope, guess I might as well hangBut that's some bullshit because I know it won't workWhat if my neck doesn't break on the first jerk?What type of shit is this? I guess I'll just slit a wristBut that's way too slow, and plus, what if the veins missed?I've abandoned all chances of begging and all chances of livingGuess there's no obvious circumstances of givingNow if I'm gonna move on of free willThe only way to eat a meal is to rob, steal and killBut I don't have it in me and I'm too damn friendlyYou're my enemy because I'm broke and you have plentyThat's how I justify it in my own mental riotYou're well fed and I'm about to die from this dietSo you be quiet, and give up all your shit calmlyI'm ornery and I have a rusty screwdriver on meAnd if you try to fight then it's going in your neck quickI'm a derelict but this is no lunatic rhetoricSo take it seriously and don't try to screw with meDon't get furious or curious, I want your jewelryYes all of it, hurry up I'm being tolerantIf I choose to kill you, huh, the police ain't solving itCuz I'm a nobody and nobody is witnessing this robberyAnd after I kill you, I'll kill myself probablyThat's right, I'm gonna kill you now I'm so sorryBut I got all of your money plus the keys to your FerrariAnd that's all I need huh I knew that he would fall indeedThen the cops pulled up while I watched his neck bleedAnd they pulled out all their guns at me and yelled "Freeze"I put the screwdriver to my throat and fell to my kneesGod please, tell me who's at fault, is it me?I told the cops I used to be a productive MCAnd I signed a record deal with a shady companyWho exploited me and left me homeless without a pennyI was excited, the first label interestedI did what I did cuz I was a foolish young kidOh well, if I live, I'm on a road to hellSo I guess this is it, goodbye, farewell
